Nathan redone. Yes, Nathan reminds me of a Sunflower Faery, a warrior with a spear and paint and colourful clothes that comes out with the dawn to do… whatever it is that sunflower Faery warriors do. He isn’t gentle; even through his soft-spokenness, he always seems to have a high amount of near-savage energy.
Nathan and I can talk about the most disgusting things, but we don’t judge one another about it (just a few minutes ago, I told him about how my bottom mouth wire is cutting into my tongue and I keep bleeding because of it, for example.) Actually, we can talk about almost ANYTHING and not be judgmental – Nathan is not a judgmental person. He accepts his friends no matter what, to an extent that I admire. He’s damn near Hufflepuffien! (In fact, I call him a Rufflepuff.) He is very loyal, probably the MOST loyal person that I know. And he is honest, despite being able to lie to protect himself (though, in his circumstances, he can say that without shame.)
Two traits that people wouldn’t normally associate with Nathan – at least, not on the surface – is that he is both wise and strong. Sure, he’s intelligent – as it is, he’s one of the smartest people I know. But he also is wise enough to be accepting, and kind, but also fierce when he needs to be. He is strong because he has gone through the most out of everyone I’ve ever met. He doesn’t think he’s strong, but I do. Sure, he doesn’t deal with things flawlessly – he succumbs, he cries, he screams – but he is still standing. He is still. Standing. And that, I think, is amazing. After all that, you’d think Nathan wouldn’t be open to love or acceptance, but when it comes to us, he is. He is caring, and he is compassionate, even when he doesn’t understand.
Again, Nathan is violently warm and upbeat. He is good at being happy, no matter what happens to him. He is gritty. He is individual, and he is also quite soothing when he needs to be. He’s a good comforter when he needs to be, though I don’t think he believes that. He doesn’t have the best self-esteem, but he really should. He is a wonderful person to spend time with; tea parties, movie watching, going for walks and seeing if we can throw our shoes over telephone wires. He is creative and imaginative.
Nathan is a living duality and contradiction, and I don’t just mean by being a man in the body of a woman. He is soft-spoken, but he is loud. He is avoidant, but he is unafraid of the bigness of his personality. He has it in him to be both incredibly kind and incredibly cruel. He is a seemingly perfect balance of light and dark – unafraid of his negative qualities and thoughts, but able to move past them in favour of something positive when the mood strikes him. He’s been very violent from a young age, but he has it in him to be mild as well. It’s as if he is both Angel and Demon – and, after all, Faerys are supposed to be fallen Angels, haha (I didn’t plan that one, I swear.) Nathan is interesting. He is a fascinating, engaging person.
I just fucking love my Nate!